** Please excuse the random thoughts that you are about to read. I have this funny thing that happens to me when my brain tries to wrap itself around certain thoughts, notions and life truths. They roll around in my brain, crashing like waves over and over until I finally give in and take pen to paper, or in most cases, finger to keyboard... At that point it is a form of self preservation. I write these things down to get them out and stop the pounding of these mental waves that keep crashing. It is a supreme relief when it is out, and afterwards when it is in written form, sometimes it is even worth reading or even sharing. If this makes me crazy... well... yeah..**
Life is made up of a collection of everyone's personal stories. If you really think about it, life is the ultimate story. You have a beginning, a middle and of course, the end. This pattern for us humans doesn't every really change much.
The AMAZING part of this thing called life, is that for the most part, we get to write our own story! We of course cannot choose our parents, our backgrounds or where we grow up... but after the beginning of every story comes this beautiful part called the Middle. It really IS beautiful by the way... God gave us these bodies... with brains in them that give us a chance to make choices for ourselves. If we don't like where our lives started, we can make up our minds to completely change the course of our story. We make our Middle whatever we want it to be... Amazing.. right??
The middle.. the place in every story where the action, the drama, the horror, the heart break.. well everything really... HAPPENS. Like in writing any story, you, the author of this particular story get to pick the backdrop, your cast of characters and the general flow of events. Unlike a work of fiction, you cannot control every event that happens as the story unfolds. That lack of control is what makes things a bit scary or at the very least, unnerving. But that's just life..
Now in your story, with the characters picked and your backdrop ready, the Middle really starts moving faster. You are shuttling down a path, an unknown path that you will only discover as you go along. You have your choices.. right or left.. or even straight. You make your choices and follow where the road takes you. Unlike the author of a book, you have NO clue where you will end up.. Maybe it will be a happy place full of sunshine, love and flowers. Maybe the path you choose sets your life on a story path that is much darker.. filled with regret, heartache and gloom. But most likely it will be a mix of these two extremes. Times of unspeakable joy, days or months of complete normalcy and then those times of unhappiness that just cannot be avoided.
IF I still have you reading, I want to apologize for my ramblings. I told you at the beginning I had to get it out.. I am almost done.. I PROMISE!!
What this all boils down to is just a couple of things. You choose how to write the story of your own life. You choose the characters you place in your story. You choose how to act, and those actions can either bring sweet moments of love and joy, or in some cases, those actions bring regret, loneliness and discord. The beauty of this is that God gave us the ability to choose for ourselves!
Our WORDS, our ACTIONS build our character. That character is what people will forever remember about us. What they remember about our character can change other people's lives for better or in some cases for worse. This story we call life is irrevocably powerful one way or another.
Words are strong things. They can change an opinion, the can build a person up and just as easily tear a person to peices. The words you use ALWAYS outlive you and the situation you use them in. The wish and hope for my life is that my story is filled with love. My actions should show love, and my words should be spoken in love. Not just any love, however. The love of my Savior. My Savior who loved and forgave all.. Those who cursed Him. Those who abandoned Him. He forgave me for my wrong choices, he loves me.. sinner that I am. THAT love is the love I want coming from me. That love will never falter, never break and always stay true.
If my story ends there, then my life, MY STORY will be one that is worth remembering.